So I’ve just put my youngest son back to bed for about the tenth time. I wonder why he’s getting up tonight when he normally sleeps okay? Maybe he’s not well, maybe he has some life threatening disease that keeps him coming into my room at night? Or maybe it’s because I have an overly paranoid mother!
Eleven times (youngest)
Four times (oldest)
Ok so let me explain. Last weekend I started to have a sore eye. By Monday it was still sore and my vision was getting a bit blurry. So I made an appointment with the optician who sent me to the opthamologist at the hospital on the Tuesday. By the time I went to the hospital I had limited sight in my eye. After two hours of tests I was told I had swelling behind my eye and it should clear up by itself.
Twelve times (youngest)
Now raising two children by yourself just got harder with only one eye! So I did what doesn’t come naturally… I asked for help and I took time off work to heal.
Thirteen times (youngest)
I contacted my ex husband to explain what was going on and that I needed him to take the kids more and let me try to rest. He agreed.
I asked my mother to help too, I just wanted her to help drop the kids off places for one day, since I now can’t drive. But instead of getting to rest today I’ve been dragged wherever the kids have been and I’ve had to walk to keep her company. This doesn’t feel much like resting. I’ve also been told I’m in a bad mood, of course I am I want to be taking it easy! It would have been easier keeping the kids at home! Then I have to hear about how my ex is up to something and I should keep the kids myself. If it was that easy why isn’t she helping me to watch them!
Fourteen times (youngest)
So once the day is over and with my rubbish vision I read the clock wrong and the kids end up in bed asleep earlier than normal (by 7.20pm). I decide that I’m going to do the same, I’m shattered and I hope that sleeping will help my sight. I talk to both of my parents on the phone and I’m asleep by 8pm.
Around 10pm I’m woken by my youngest crying I sort him out and head back to bed. Then around 10.15pm he gets out of bed and the dog starts going daft. I shout at the dog to tell her it’s just my youngest up. But no then my front door opens and it’s my dad! Because I haven’t answered any of my mums calls he’s been sent to check I’m okay! I have 5 missed calls on the mobile and 2 messages, and 2 missed calls on the house phone!
Fifteen times (youngest)
Please tell me this paranoia isn’t heredity. I couldn’t put my kids or anyone through this.
So for me meant to be resting I’ve now had both kids as well as myself woken up. I’ve got the oldest back to sleep but clearly my youngest isn’t playing the game and keeps getting out of bed. Soon I’m going to leave him to sleep on my floor.
How can someone that is so paranoid actually make things so much worse. It’s now 11.15pm and only my oldest has got back to sleep.