Multiple Sclerosis and depression.

I’m not sure if what I’m feeling is depression, but I know I might need to look into it in the near future. I’ve done a lot of research on MS symptoms and side effects.

One of the things I’ve read is that people need to be aware of is that MS seems to be linked to depression. I can understand it, personally I’ve been fortunate. Before the onset of MS I had perfect vision and was fairly active, in fact I had recently took up jogging before my diagnosis. Now my vision needs a minor prescription and I’m not quite as active. But others are left with debilitating conditions and a decrease in their ability to manage independently.

I’ve been dealing with a lot recently: a bad house move, raising 2 children myself, MS diagnosis and not to forget my ex husband appearing in court for a domestic offence against myself.

But I was surprised when sitting at the theatre about a week ago I got into a conversation with the lady next to me and her three children. Her children who were in their 30’s each had a mild learning disability. However the one sitting next to her had a severe fear of heights and since we were in the first row at the highest section this wasn’t a good combination. He was anxious whenever someone stood up and if anyone put their coat or a drink on the ledge in front of our seats. It may  have been the alcohol but I found myself thinking about how easy it would be to jump over the edge and stop all these difficulties in my life. One jump and I would have no more court cases, no more being told what to do, no more arguments, no more fighting, no more tiredness. Just peace.

 

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Author: mummy2boys

This blog started as a "therapy". A way to vent about all the shitty things that have been going on recently. But as I come through separation and soon to be divorced my outlook is getting better. Then more recently I have been diagnosed with MS and plan to blog about the changes in my diet to help with symptoms and future relapses. So to sum it up this is about all things in my life and I suppose MS too.

3 thoughts on “Multiple Sclerosis and depression.”

  1. I hope it was a very quick thought because the memories you’d miss wouldn’t be worth it. When I get down, and of course I do, I look at my daughter and think of all the things I want to see her accomplish. Just makes me grateful for the opportunity to still be around to see it.

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    1. It was a very quick thought that passed and I have also shared it with my partner. There is research to suggest that if a family member takes their own life then another member of the same family is likely to do the same. And I wouldn’t want that for my children.

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