So I stated this blog over a month ago and didn’t get by the title (which i’ve now also changed).
Recently i’ve been thinking a lot about the stresses that I have in my life and how to reduce them. I believe that my current stresses will have contributed to my relapse. And there is definately a link to when I get stressed and my MS symptoms suddenly become more noticeable.
Partly work is just work. I can’t afford to stop working and I think I might also be bored without work too. But recently workloads have been ridiculous. We should have case loads of about 50 although i’ve heard other areas have closer to 35-40. However my area is closer to case loads of 70! No wonder I’m getting stressed. There isn’t the time to manage this high a workload and staff are starting to go of sick with the pressure.
This is something I need to find a way to address. So my thoughts were to put in for a lateral transfer. So I will be transfered to another area soon that has less stress and a slower pace of work.
But since i’ve been told that I am getting Lemtrada and the time off work that I will need it’s been discussed that the transfer should maybe be delayed!! I can’t decide if I understand the reasoning for this or that starting a new job after Lemtrada could just be more stressful.
Again children are just children. I can’t get away from them or give them away. And I wouldn’t want to. But sometimes children cause stress that they don’t realise that they are causing. For example my eldest is struggling with his behaviour just now. Not that he is agressive or nasty. He just will not listen. Even to his teacher. This is concerning me enough that I have arranged for him to meet with a play therapist. I think he’s a thinker, and my instinct says he’s worried about something.
The unknown of MS is a stress to most of us I think. You never know when you are going to have a relapse which you may loose a bodily function or use of a limb. For most of the time this is something I learn to live with. But sometimes it causes anxiety or stress. And I’m sure that this is a normal human response.
I’ve been put forward for Lemtrada so it should reduce the chance or relapses by 70%. And I will be monitored very closely for a number of years. I think this gives me some reassurance. But the thought of the treatment and the impact that it may have on the short time is a slight stress.
I don’t know what to say about my ex. He’s an idiot! My previous blog posts show some of his behaviours but that’s probably just the most extreme. Recently it’s more trivial issues, but that might me more about my response and feelings about the situation. He’s an idiot, I’m not going to change that, so I need to learn not to let it stress me.
So what if I suspect his behaviour is impacting the children. Right now all I can do is monitor it, record it and try not to stress myself or the children.
My house is a disaster! I moved to a house all on the one level as I was finding the stairs so tiring. But this house just keeps needing more work! I’m nearly at a stage where I can show the before and after pictures so I will share them soon. But really if it could have gone wrong then it has.